I want to thank everyone for your condolences. I didn't mean to hijack the thread with that bit of info... just put things in perspective. But I do appreciate your outpouring of kindness.

It hasn't even really hit me yet. This was the boy who used to come barreling down on me, whooping it up, riding our palomino, when I was a preschooler, and lean over and scoop me up in front of him without even slowing down or stopping, laughing all the time at my squeals of fright. He was all about laughter and enjoying life to its fullest, and that's how I want to remember him, with his laughter. Life wasn't fair to him and he was given a lot of unfair challenges early in life; and he never really found a place to stand firm; but he never stopped laughing or bringing laughter to those around him.

I think God took him too soon.

Diane

I'm officially banned from Androtics today. Others are getting banned and their stuff is going missing.

No matter what I think or thought of their products, this company is sick from the top down. When a company becomes more about cult of personality than it does about quality of product, there is something very, very wrong.

Diane

(08-14-2009 5:19 PM)Diane999 Wrote:  I want to thank everyone for your condolences. I didn't mean to hijack the thread with that bit of info... just put things in perspective. But I do appreciate your outpouring of kindness.

It hasn't even really hit me yet. This was the boy who used to come barreling down on me, whooping it up, riding our palomino, when I was a preschooler, and lean over and scoop me up in front of him without even slowing down or stopping, laughing all the time at my squeals of fright. He was all about laughter and enjoying life to its fullest, and that's how I want to remember him, with his laughter. Life wasn't fair to him and he was given a lot of unfair challenges early in life; and he never really found a place to stand firm; but he never stopped laughing or bringing laughter to those around him.

I think God took him too soon.

Diane

Oh (((((((Diane)))))) I am so sorry for your lose. It does put things in perspective though. His energy will always be with you just focus into your core and you will feel him there. He's a part of you. I got teary from your story because my brother used to do the same thing when I was little and My father would yell at him. He still does it to this day and when my sister or I hear his horse barreling down on us we scramble for safety LOL Its not as fun when your older as it was when we were kids at least not for me and my sister. My brother thinks its a hoot though. I have two brothers one in Texas and one who lives on the family farm upstate. Is he your only sibling ?

Quote:Tisha, remember that you are not alone in this. There are hundreds of us who stand with you. To the hilt. You don't even get all the anti-fans. SteveO's got his share. There's even a few that think Bella and I are the evil force that kept them so busy writing circular replies to our pointed questions that they couldn't take care of business. LOL

Oh I know Steve had a hell of a time. I still talk to him all the time. We used to laugh about the rumors that went around about us. Some people thought we were married (snort) We did join together on the same day which renny astutely picked up on. I can honestly say I love the man and will always consider him my hus........... whoops I mean friend LOL (jk about the hus) I will miss the good times we had there and will probably still pop in to read unless they officially boot me but I am excited to be a part of this forum and look forward to more good times.

Tisha

(08-14-2009 9:48 PM)Tisha Wrote:  Oh (((((((Diane)))))) I am so sorry for your lose. It does put things in perspective though. His energy will always be with you just focus into your core and you will feel him there. He's a part of you. I got teary from your story because my brother used to do the same thing when I was little and My father would yell at him. He still does it to this day and when my sister or I hear his horse barreling down on us we scramble for safety LOL Its not as fun when your older as it was when we were kids at least not for me and my sister. My brother thinks its a hoot though. I have two brothers one in Texas and one who lives on the family farm upstate. Is he your only sibling?

Tisha

No. I have two other brothers. But I think I understood him more than I do my other siblings. We all came through a very unhealthy family dynamic. I won't bore anyone with too many details, except to say that he was the most like my father in looks, temperament, and personality, and was totally rejected by my father, who would single him out for pointed neglect and non-inclusion with things he did with my other two brothers. It was cruel and totally unfair and constant, and I know it scarred my brother's heart terribly. He carried that rejection his whole life, and only once did he break down and talk with me about it when we were both adult, and long after our father died. So, I know the broken heart he carried, and I know why he brought so much laughter to everyone around him and how effective a defense and trap that was for him.

Diane

I've also been labeled over there as a commercial spammer. I don't need to tell you guys that this is exactly why I deleted the tester's thread, and didn't send anyone from the forum any samples, and why I was so very careful to be upfront on the forum about what was the truth and not the truth about my relationship with Androtics, and why I sent the email to each tester about why we couldn't continue testing, and the emails to everyone requesting samples why I couldn't do that - it was all because I saw this coming from their first threatening PM.

What they are doing here by labeling me this way is unethical and illegal.

Diane

Aww Diane I am very sorry to hear about your brother. I've noticed emotionally, sick miserable people often take out their frustrations on the people that are most like them. I guess it is because they see everything they hate in themselves in that person. I know it most be very hard, my brother and I are very close because we also had a troubled family dynamic and all we had was each other. You must be a very selfless person; creating a product for others at a time when you should be focused on you. Take care love.
Hugs Nia

(08-15-2009 12:13 AM)Niatalya Wrote:  Aww Diane I am very sorry to hear about your brother. I've noticed emotionally, sick miserable people often take out their frustrations on the people that are most like them. I guess it is because they see everything they hate in themselves in that person. I know it most be very hard, my brother and I are very close because we also had a troubled family dynamic and all we had was each other. You must be a very selfless person; creating a product for others at a time when you should be focused on you. Take care love.
Hugs Nia

Thanks for the hugs Nia.

I never pretended to be a selfless person, and Tisha can attest to that! And I'm not above the occassional meltdown.

But I try to keep things in perspective. And I'm 49 years old, which is a little too old to believe in immortality. My brother died two weeks ago. I've had some rough times in those couple of weeks with tears breaking through, but I'm doing okay, and I'm not disabled by my grief.

The Copulins have been in development for a long time. And the work is rewarding. It keeps me looking forward instead of towards the past.

Diane

(08-14-2009 10:58 PM)Diane999 Wrote:  What they are doing here by labeling me this way is unethical and illegal.

Diane

Diane,

You weren't the first and you wont be the last! Those of us in the know, realize what happened, the rest don't matter!

We love you for who you are and what you've accomplished and will build upon as time goes by!

I hope you know that! You are an incredible person who earned far more respect than some gave you, but not us! Your delimma is a huge part of why this forum exists!

All of us here love you Diane,

Mark

(08-15-2009 12:58 AM)mark-in-dallas Wrote:  Diane,

You weren't the first and you wont be the last! Those of us in the know, realize what happened, the rest don't matter!

We love you for who you are and what you've accomplished and will build upon as time goes by!

I hope you know that! You are an incredible person who earned far more respect than some gave you, but not us! Your delimma is a huge part of why this forum exists!

All of us here love you Diane,

Mark

Thank you, Mark. I appreciate that more than you know.

I can't take credit for the birth of this forum, though. You guys (n gals) have done a tremendous job with it, and I just stumbled on it. And really it was your own inner response to the craziness and drama after I left that lead here, wasn't it?

So, really, although you feel for me (and I thank you for that) it is your own good natures and own inner strength that lead to this. And you should give yourselves all the credit that you are due for all your dedication and hard work.

Diane

(08-15-2009 1:09 AM)Diane999 Wrote:  Thank you, Mark. I appreciate that more than you know.

I can't take credit for the birth of this forum, though. You guys (n gals) have done a tremendous job with it, and I just stumbled on it. And really it was your own inner response to the craziness and drama after I left that lead here, wasn't it?

So, really, although you feel for me (and I thank you for that) it is your own good natures and own inner strength that lead to this. And you should give yourselves all the credit that you are due for all your dedication and hard work.

Diane

Diane, you are welcome! It wasn'ty JUST your situation that caused me to walk, I disagreed with a member being able to send in a product to include in a mix that they released, and then tried to discredit the reasoning, and the new influx of members that were coming onboard too.

The reasons really don't make a difference though, hopefully we can build something here that is what the experienced, long term phero users want to see, and where newer users can find credible, exerienced help!

And, like it or not, your delimma did have a part in this forum becoming a reality. Thank you for that!